well y'all

i've done the unthinkable. boyfriend. that's right. i have a boyfriend now. a great one. and i'm happy, so happy. but scared shitless at the same time. i'm supposed to be a maneater. with no feelings about boys and which heart i break. but here i am going back on everything i believe. but, i want to think Ryan is worth it. because as much shit as i've seen in my past relationships, he's seen just as much. two little broken people just trying to learn to trust again. we'll see how it goes, bloggers. and until then, happy days.

why is it

that even single, i have to have boy drama? seriously?! what part of i just want to text you and maybe kiss you don't boys get. single for a reason and staying that way. i was in THE SHITTIEST relationship ever. and it's dumb of myself to assume that i'm anywhere near ready for anything serious. dumb dumb dumb. i am so pissed off at the world right now. FUCK. lalalala done ranting.

i think they call this happy

this, dear followers, makes the first time i've posted two blogs within the same month. well, for the first time in a long time. coooool. i've made a pinky swear with someone to try to keep it up, so this is my best attempt at it.

last night, i decided that i should probably look into a different living situation due to lack of sleep, lack of money and the fact that it's just hard to live with your best friends because you love them too much to strangle them. so, for the count, this is move number 5 within the past year and a half-ish? TOO much. i'm just ready to be somewhere that i can spread my roots and be solid.

the best news though, is i'm moving in with my sister. so that means no rent, no bills, just buying whatever food i like to have around, which mostly consists of peanut butter and soymilk. so, success. and my only rule really is that i have to go back to school, which i need to do anyway. so there we have it bloggers, i'm a student once again. and i've decided to pick no major becauseeee that's always where i mess myself up and get too excited.

boys. this is an all new topic for me. i mean, to an extent. i wish i were whole enough to commit myself to someone, but as of now, i'm just jaded and broken. but one day, some day, i'll be back to the whole brittany i once was and things will be great. i know it and someone has promised me this, so until then, things are just new and exciting and i love it.

i do believe that's all for now, as i'm probably going to be late for work. soooo, moving, boys, school. that's recap. i'll post pictures of my new room as soon as i get it all situated. <3

NEW LIFEEE

okay, bloggers. it's been a while and i think i mightttt have a bit of news to tell you.
i've moved from indiana and back home to the glorious state of mississippi. i ended things with Joel at the end of April due to so many various reasons, things just were not working out and i was far from happy.

so, i moved home and life has been great since. i got a new job working in retail and recently got a couple of promotions. i'm now living with three of the most amazing individuals to grace this planet: Haylea, Chelsea and Josh. if it weren't for those three i would have lost my mind somewhere in this crazy process. i'm now newly single...and uh....ready to mingle? except not even slightly. the following words make me want to vomit and/or die: relationship, i love you, baby, or any combination of the lyrics to 'only wanna be with you'. so, bring it on boys, just don't get too attached because i'm not sure i can stick around for anyone but myself, simply because i haven't been able to in so long.

so now, this blog is going from me whining about being bored and missing home, it will now hold all of my various boy encounters, as there have been a few already. but that's for a new blog. i'll leave you with these words:


Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cards
make you fall, real hard in love
She's a Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love
She's a maneater
make you buy cars
make you cut cards
Wish you never ever met her at all!

things are just weird.

but i think i'm finally going to be happy.
thank you.

Worst Blogger Ever

I really used to think I would use this thing as a sort of Journal that way I could look back at all the stuff I've done. Once again, epic fail. But thank you loyal followers for trying to cope with my crazy thoughts and procrastination anyway.

Things aren't all that different. I've changed my major yet again. Nursing. I think I may actually try to stick this one out. We'll see. I think I would much rather be a professional student from here until eternity. What do you think?

Two weeks until I go get Kenzie in that faithful trip to Mississippi and I could not be more excited! I miss my dog and my family and I think it's been more than enough time since I've seen them.

So, for now, that is all. And once again, I will try my best to be better about this silly blog thing.

What Exactly Is Thanksgiving For?

Well, for most normal Americans, it means a time of year in which we can all come together and be grateful that we aren't stuck in some third world country picking food out of landfills. Instead we gorge ourselves on dry turkey, canned cranberry sauce and wayyyy too much pie. But for me, Thanksgiving has exactly three meanings, no school, BLACK FRIDAY (which should be what we celebrate anyway) and the start of the Christmas season. Who really cares about turkeys and pilgrims and all of that nonsense. Not me.

All I am really excited about is being able to start listening to Christmas music, like Sara, I CANNOT listen until the day after Thanksgiving. It also means prime shopping time, although I'm practically finished with everyone except Joel's brother who is nearly impossible to buy anything for. But Christmas is always such a warm, happy time in my life every since I can remember. So bring on the Ella Fitzgerald and A Christmas Story, because I'm ready!

So for those of you who actually LIKE Thanksgiving, sorry to offend, but we all know Thanksgiving is just the boring previews before the movie.


SPEAKING OF MOVIES. Holy New Moon. Now I don't want to be one of those bloggers that ruin everything for the people that haven't seen it yet. But ohhheeemmgeee. This first one does not even compare to the new one. Attention to detail was amazing! GO SEE ITTTT NOWWW. And I am again tonight!<3

So Happy Thanksgiving to my followers, may yours be happy and blessed. And may your turkey not be dry.